Grief, In More Ways Than One

I'm feeling sad today. And it's my 2-year-anniversary. Not sad about that, just about the human condition.

Am I the only person alive about the age of 12 who still thinks some things are inappropriate? I get uncomfortable at nudity in movies! Especially when it is just crude, like Wedding Crashers. I am alarmed by people who think Wedding Crashers was a good movie.

I like to think of myself as an artist type--I am a writer, at least in my head. I love art and writing and music and the like. But I watched the movie Frida this weekend and was fairly scandalized by the nudity, sex scenes, including homosexual ones. I think that's a good thing, unlike what people might tell me. Being a Christian, I think I should still be offended by things that offend God. I don't want to be judgmental, but I do want to walk in light!

Thought 2, I am kind of starting phase 1 of South Beach today (again). Except I had 3 dark chocolate Hershey kisses. But not like 3 Hershey bars or anything. They were sitting there melting all over everything in my purse including my nice new cell phone.

Everyone at work is at a funeral today for the son of a guy who works in this department. The boy was just going to be a senior in high school. Football player, played in the church's worship band, good student, witnessed to friends. Makes it very confusing to know what God is thinking sometime, but I know I am not one to try to compare my thinking to God's. In my heart, I know that He knows best and I am ridiculous to think I might know better. He has a plan.

J

Grief, In More Ways Than One

I give up on the whole weight loss/exercise thing until next week, when we are MOVED. Hard to believe one week from today (a) we have to be out of our apartment and (b) we will have been married for 2 years! Pretty crazy. But exciting, especially about moving!!! I wish I could be at home packing this week but alas, my vacation time is all used up! I still have to leave by 1 today because we have our first walk-through this afternoon. I get to see MY house all finished! It's a new build, so we got to pick out flooring, cabinets, etc. Eeep!

Well, I need to shove a lot of work into a little time today since I am leaving early today and on Thursday for our closing!

J

Well, hm. It's one o'clock and I feel like I have gotten nothing done yet today. Not that I have tons to do, but still! We had an "emergency" meeting this morning at 10:05. Well everyone gets down there and waits for the manager until 10:30. Then they tell us they've let go 5 people in our department, one of whom has been at the company 35 years. Holy schmoly. Not anyone in my immediate section, but our "sister" section I guess is how you'd put it. I work on Undated materials for Adults for a publishing company, and this is the dated materials section.

So that was strange, and then it was lunchtime, went and had a nice lunch in the cafeteria--Smart Ones and salad. And a cappuccino. And some cookies. Sigh. But not a ton, in fact, somehow my calories are only adding up to 950 for the whole day? How is that possible? I am sure I just underestimate portion sizes and stuff. I eat when I am hungry and I eat plenty, I am sure!

I am so tired, this weekend was exhausting. Friday Mr. V and I had talked about going to see the new Pirates movie, but with my hip and the heat by the night I was too exhausted. Sat morning we took the car in to get new tires, aligned, oil changed ($450!!!!) and then we went to a wedding, went shopping, and went to the theatre where we have season tickets. Sunday we went to church, and then Mr. V went to work and I went on a cooking spree. I think we have enough meals to get us through until the move next week. SO excited about it finally being here! Our very own home. :) But I feel SO incredibly stressed right now. I would like to crawl into a box and sleep for a few days!

J

Accidents Happen, But Accidents Like This Only Happen to Me

And I started this week with such high motivation...

I was at the gym at 6 AM on Monday morning. Had a nice 25-minute workout but then I had to get ready for work. I was in the shower at the Y and my shampoo fell and rolled into another stall. Bright me, I decided to crouch down and just reach for it. Well, I twisted my hip in a very painful way. Then I stood up and passed out from the pain.

They took me to the ER. VERY embarrassing and painful. I can't lift my left leg hardly at all, which makes exercise seem impossible at this point. Plus when I'm sick I just want to eat. I haven't eaten everything in the house, which is good, but we did order pizza on Tuesday night, and last night Adam and I had roast chicken and stuffing.

Tonight is salmon, which sadly is high-WW point even though it's so good for you. I need to have a frozen meal for lunch, but I'm going to PeiWei instead. I don't understand their calories on their website vs. what is on the DWLZ website. Ack.

Off to lunch.

Accidents Happen, But Accidents Like This Only Happen to Me